Thursday, March 31, 2011

what I am working on this week

 there's a couple of things that I have been working on this week.....a Christmas/birthday/anns crochet blanket and a retangled rag rug made out of a sheet!
right now it's 30x8 but it will be wider

this shows the colors and stitches!

My life is getting a little bit more easier from day to day! I still find myself calling Dad to check in and see what the news and weather is going to be for down there and up here! I get to talk to Miriam and about our trip last July that I took with them! I am so glad that I did, because in the back of my mind I knew that it will be the last trip that I would ever take with my dad! He acted so different from when I was growing up! we laughed & joked around....he was completely different man!

Thursday, March 24, 2011

It's been a good and a bad week for me

Good- Weasel got laid off so he is moving a little camper that we will be living in with is dog Angel! ( I will miss him) because weasel will not be giving him his medicine! He is suppose to be back some time today and pack and pick up his check! Everyone of our neighbors are thrilled that he is moving!!!!

At least then we can have guest over and not have them sleep on the couches!!!! LOL

Bad- I keep picking up the phone to talk to my dad! I have so many questions to ask him that I did not get a chance to ask when he was alive! I just want to talk to him one last time!

THE BRISTOL RACE- was BORING as HE##! and of course Kyle Busch won it again! We had 4 teenage girls with us, too! Bob's boss bought the tickets so all we had to pay for was a had a HOT TUB in it! I could have stayed in it! Bob and I was celebrating our 29th anns, because we buried my dad on the 21st of February!

On sunday we took the back roads to get home because we knew that weasel would be drunk and of course he was! Then he wonders why his stomach is messed up all of the time! Where's his SIGN!!!

Thursday, March 17, 2011

my week so far

yesterday marked a month since my dad past away! so, it was not a good day! I still find myself wanting to pick up the phone and talk to him! I did the same thing when my mom past away 21 years ago!

I still feel like I am a boat floating with no anchors to drop! my parents and grand parents were my anchors! I have a husband, 2 great sons and daughter-in-laws......but i am still lost!I am just going through the motions of the day!

I am still working on the sheet rag rug! It's getting pretty big!


Friday, March 11, 2011

unanswered questions.......

all day today I have been asking myself questions that cannot be answered.......
is my dad in heaven?
did God forgive my dad from what he did to me and my mom?

I forgave my dad, but I never will forget what he did to me or to my mom! that hurts me! because that has hurt me mentally and physically since I was 13 years old! Things that I am still dealing with until this day! No one can understand what has happened to me becasue they are all gone.......still unanswered questions! My sister just blocked things out when these things were happening, so she does not understand...........

I loved my dad because he had changed into a father that I always wanted........and had started a relationship with him.....a little too late!

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

back home

I am finally home after rushing down to nc for father-in-law! I just wish that they all know how lucky they are to have both mom and dad still living! I miss mine so much....tomorrow My dad would have been 74 years old! =*(

we did stop and seen the grand baby....Michael! He is getting so dang big! He's teething so bad! He claps when you clap which is so sweet! My oldest turned 28 years old today! It seems like just yesterday that I had him......and had both of my boys home! I miss both of them so much!I used to fuss at both of them for fighting! Now, I wish I had that back!

Friday, March 4, 2011

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Thursday, March 3, 2011

I am okay.......

as far as I can be.....I mis my dad dearly and we were just starting a real relationship! In may Bonnie and I sat Dad down and told him this, " WE ARE TIRED OF YOU PITTING US AGAINST EACH OTHER AND WE AIN'T HAVING IT ANYMORE!!"  Miriam sat there and ageed with us....and dad with a funny look on his face said, " OKAY!" he  would call both of us on monday if we did not call him on sunday! it was nice! and I will dearly miss that!!!

I have completed my t-shirt rag rug pictures to follow cause I am using it for my side of the bed! LOL

Not reading anything right now just trying to get balanced out on my medicines and see where that goes!

I am keeping in touch with Miriam......and her girls! we all miss dad in different ways and someone is always there with Miriam! which is good!

enough for now!
not completely finished picture! post one later if this old lady can remember! LOL